Thursday, May 20, 2010

train of thought..

There are some people who've made such a tremendous impact on my thoughts; and thus my life without the slightest inkling of awareness. Some family, some friends, some acquaintances, and even some almost-strangers.

To explain...I feel as if one of the most integral components of my nature is my endless daydreaming. My racing and wandering mind. My never-ending trains of thought. How I need to mull things over and make complete sense of them before being able to truly discard them or come to terms with them. I've gathered lessons from the aforementioned people- without even realizing it. Subconsciously I've observed how people get to where they are, and somehow locked it away in my mind to help me choose a vague path for myself.

Does this just mean I'm growing up? Perhaps.

Also, not sure if this even makes sense to anyone but myself. It doesn't really matter. I'm just pleased with myself for.. well.. showing some uncharacteristic discipline in a few different arenas of my life as of late. And there are so many different faces to thank. People I've met who have shown me everything they have that I don't want. People who have wanted to see more places than their own home state so they left. Those who've stepped out of their comfort zone to find that perhaps a different, formerly uncomfortable lifestyle happens to be a better fit.

I have yet to visit Montana. Hopefully I'll get there before all the glaciers melt...

Somewhat recently I've even met some people who've taken any fear out of The Future. It's not as if I've ever been a worrywart about things; I tend to think "what's the worst that can happen?" regardless. But these people have shown me that there truly isn't much to fear, and even some peoples' "worst" can be great fun.